I almost fell from my chair -.- ugh. I hate this schedule haha :))
I always feel sleepy but I have to keep myself awake. Goodmorning !
FOR YOU. I know that I will not be perfect for you. I might not mend the bruises she left in your heart. I may not fully cure your broken soul. But let me take care of you. Let me kiss away your tears and blow away your pain. Let me post smiles in your face. And bring back the light in your eyes.
I won’t ask you to forget her. That will be impossible. I know how you loved her before and might love her still. I won’t force you to move on and let it go. But let me hold your hand along those process. Let me stand in your side. You can cry in my shoulders. And sob and mourn. I want you to know that I won’t judge you or get mad. You can be fragile in front of me. Unmask yourself and just breakdown.
It’s been darkness. I know you’ve been miserable. But let me swift you out of that place. I will put mornings in your everyday. When all you had was evenings ever since she left. Let me shine on your life.
I’d like you to know that I’m here. To make you happy. That even for a while I’ll make you forget about the pain. And you might or might not love me as much as you love her, but it’s fine. As long as you’re happy. And yes, I believed you when you told me you love me. At least you do. :)
I have been clicking the “Like” button for an hour now :))) and I really need to sleep because I have to go to work later, so goodnight :* just ask/fm anything I will surely reply to it. Okay? :)
Emerrrgeeddhhhh may nakapansin na online ako XD oh I missyou more joms! :((
Sometimes I really wonder why created this blog. Is it because I want to have friends? Is it because I want someone to read and appreciate my thoughts. Is it because I just want to try it or Is it because I find happiness here. Actually, I really don’t know why and I am still figuring it out. But…
I want to be a kid again, when the hardest thing to do is ..
to decide which color of jellyace I want to eat ..
Dear Future Soulmate,
I’m clingy, but I’ll never admit it. I’ll check my phone every 5 minutes to see if you’ve replied to something I’ve drafted numerous times in my head. I’ll get anxious when you don’t answer me back for a long time, and I’ll think to myself maybe you’ve had enough of me. Yet when your message finally comes, it doesn’t matter what you’ve said because the simple act of replying assures me that you’re still mine. At least, for the time being it will.
I’ll get jealous a lot, but please don’t misconstrue it as me tying you down. I won’t get jealous because I want you all to myself, no. I want you to be able spend time with family, friends, and everyone else in between. I’ll get jealous because maybe, just maybe you’ll find something special in someone else, as you did with me. I’ll be weary that maybe you’ll look at someone just as how you look at me, or your heart will begin to wander somewhere else.
I’m insecure, and it’s of no fault of your own. When I say something a little negative about myself, it’s not a cry for attention nor is it me wanting you to disagree with me. It’s me just being me. Before you, I’ll probably never imagine in a million years that you’d be mine. So by virtue of the fact that we’re together makes me even more insecure. But let me make something clear, I won’t be bagging on myself all the time. I know what talents I possess, what I excel in, the aspects in my physique that work in my favor, and so on. I’m just more vocal on the things which fall in the opposite categories.
I’ll possess many faults, and I’m not looking for you to fix them. I think when I finally meet you, I’ll be more accepting of these faults than I am now. All I’m asking is that you accept them with me.
I know this letter seems to be focusing on the negative things about me, and it’s quite a bit to take in… so let me make a change of pace.
I’ll always love you. When we’re finally acquainted, and we finally begin to personify the definition of love for one another, I’ll never need another definition. I’ve told myself countless times that I would never cheat on someone because I know what that feels like. I’ll love you more than I love myself and I know that isn’t too great but that’s just how I am. I’m going to fall in love with the way your smile dances across your face every time you see me, I’ll fall in love with the way you lose yourself in the things you love, I’ll fall in love with the way your voice fluctuates depending on how you’re feeling, I’ll fall in love with the way you say my name, and I’ll most definitely fall in love with so much more. I’ll study everything about you, I’ll remember the slightest details about you and your life. I’ll know what you look like when you’re upset without you having to say a word, I’ll know how you like your coffee in the morning, I’ll know how long it takes you to get ready before we go out, I’ll know most of the trivial things about you and the rest I’ll learn along the way. I pray you’ll be able to do the same as well.If you’re still reading, and you haven’t run away… I’ll probably be sitting across from you looking insanely nervous and insecure. I’d be sitting with my legs folded under me on the chair anxiously waiting for your reaction. On top of that I’ll probably be ready to burst into tears of happiness or tears of sadness.
So to end this letter, which my actual soulmate will read once the time comes… I’d like to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a reason to live again, thank you for proving to me that love really is meant for me, and thank you for being my reason to be alive."
A man should not marry a girl because she’s pregnant. He should marry her because he loves her